"A pained heart will always carry a deadly burden"

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I don't know why this seems to always follow me but I'm starting to see relationships are not meant for me, I tried so many times and put in so much to make them work but in reality it seems as if they are just dumb for me to even try because they always end so quick and come with too many problems. I guess love and happiness really don't exists, people aren't meant to really truly be happy. I want to know how it feels though to be 100% happy. Everything I seem to touch seems to crumble and fade away slowly, I don't even know why I try really. I mean I am an intelligent, smart, powerful young woman but it never seems like its enough. I don't know why I seem to hurt the ones I care about the most or why things turn sour towards the end. Maybe its God giving me a sign saying that I should just focus on me first before trying to let someone else in the picture. Word of Advice for the ladies out there, never put your heart into something your not sure will last because in the end you will look like the idiot and I have many times in my life. I guess now I should take this as a great experience or what ever people say and learn from it for when it probably comes up again in the future, but I just don't feel like dealing with this anymore. I guess its just me, myself and I for a while until something so called "magical" happens.